A great pull between the desire to do, against, the desire to what you should do.
Frequently, we misjudge the character of our heart.
Yes, it has a character.
The heart has an objective: to speak the language of your soul. It gives you the ability to understand your needs, and, when combined with the brain it achieves remarkable things. I say this, because, the heart has the ability to monitor emotional understanding whilst the brain works systematically to execute the desires of the heart. Which is why I believe that the heart is centred in such a prime location within our body.
The vibration of the heart is just as important. With each pulsating beat, our heart starts to hammer itself into a trance. The speed dictating the rhythmic flow, and, our hearts pumping religiously to show-off their incredible stamina. It is remarkable how our hearts function under extreme pressure. The strain we burden our hearts with, such as: stress, anxiety, worldly pressures, and emotional strain deteriorates the life span of our hearts. Much like, these things are also why we emotionally start to distrust other human beings over terrible relationships.
Hearts are used with versatility in our work. Either we reflect on the heart for its’ physical function, physiological, metaphysical or emotional. As an artist, I depend on the language of my heart to take me places, and, to speak to people.
My heart, on the other hand, has been cluttered and blocked with external responsibilities, and, duties of fulfillment which are oppressing me from correctly taking the right path. Piles and piles of social calamities, and, acts of service plummet me into an act of emotional negligence towards myself. Ironically, these acts of negligence stem from the service to my own family. I will not elaborate in greater detail of my emotional priorities, but, I have just said enough, I think.
I have realised, that my written speech is also becoming affected due to the changes impacting me in my life. I do not have the same colloquial-ness, nor do I express verbal creativity when I talk.
Hopefully writing more can develop my verbal stamina.
Mehreen Javed 